To Whom it Concerns: August 1, 2005

August 1, 2005

To Whom It Concerns:

It has been a long time since we last conversed, since we last saw each other. I remember the last time, we saw each other, I vowed that we would see each other again. That I would be able to hold you in my arms, but sadly time and distance separated us. As the months dragged on, I secretly keep hope alive that one day I would be able to see you again: To see your beautiful smile.

How Blind I was to your ostentation, to your promises of future endearments, of hope itself. The truth of the matter was that your love was only an outward show. Your aim was only to bring attention and affection to yourself. Even your gestures of concern and care where a ploy to cover your true feelings. Now, I truly believe that you never loved me, not the way I loved you. You fell in love, not with me, but with the very concept of love itself.

In retrospect, I have so many regrets. I regret investing my precious time in something that was suppose to mean something. Yes that word: Meaning. Nothing I ever did for you, ever meant anything. Our relationship had no real meaning or significance. It was as if we were wasting our time. Correction: My time. I regret so much being with you and hoping in you. My investment of my time and energy was truly in vain.

The only thing I've gained from our past union was pain and experience. I could never forget the pain. Nor will I ever, I fear. The experience helped me to come to the realization that love can truly blind a person to the inner motives of people and that's it possible to move on and love again. My experience with you has permanently changed me. I have become a stronger person as a result. I have come to appreciate that I am a good person and that I shouldn't have to settle for less. I've also learned to be less critical of myself and see myself as a balanced imperfect person with strengths that outnumber the weaknesses.

My aim is not to communicate any unkindness or acrimony, but to tell you that I still care about you. I still want you to be happy. It would be easy for me to feel bitter, but I don't. I am too good for that.

I hope that you find the same happiness I have found just recently. You'll probably never meet her, but she's everything I could possibly hope for. She truly makes me happy. She respects me. She cares for me. She appreciates me. I couldn’t have asked for more. So in this conclusion, I hope and pray that everything you wish for will come true and that you will find much happiness and love in your future endeavors, whatever it may be.

Sincerely,

CAPT O (K.J.W)