Exit: Conform Zone

Relocation:
Last month and this month will indeed a be a period of change for me. I'll be moving to a large city. The conflict type? Boy from insignificant rural place on the map meets large metropolitan area. I'll admit that it makes me nervous but I"m still excited.

Pending is my letter of resignation from the place known as the library. I've been there for 4.5 years and at times it can be a buster to deal with. The public ,at times, can be highly incompetent, wacky and just plain strange. When I move to an even larger city, I'll deal with that ten times more. It will definitely be a challenge.

Even though Daily Bugle regularly outlines many of my complaints about my job, I will still miss certain factors such as the staff, my boss, my unstructured and unsupervised work environment, and my billion hours of sick leave. I will also miss the people that make me feel "special" when I help them with their various problems with computers, books and others things. I miss getting monetary tips from overly appreciative patrons. I will miss using my authority to throw out rowdy teens from the Library. I will miss being able to pay bills online and check email while a patron talks my ear to death. I will miss the celebrity treatment I receive when I go out in the public to shop; "Hey, you're the guy that works at the library!" I will miss.......I'll stop here.

I start my new job on the 24 of April. I''ll have to withhold the name of the company since I don't want to be a jobless blogger. I am not familiar with company policy but I'm sure in some vague legalspeak, employees can not maintain blogging sites. I'm not planning to be there for very long.

Engagement and Commitment:
Every single day I'm learning of what it will require on my part to be a good husband. I'm learning that it will take a listening disposition, being apologetic, learning how to compromise and showing respect.

My challenge is the learning how to compromise part. I am so use to having things my way. If I wanted to stay home and watch cartoons, I could. If I don't want to go to a social gathering, I don't have to. If I want Chinese food, I could. I'm learning now that I can't always have what I want anymore; I'll have to compromise. I'll have to learn how to reconcile two different points of view, tastes, desires, needs, and wants. I want a two bedroom house with a basement, but I might not be able to have that. (Sigh) This is going to be challenge. I guess I'll have to condition myself to be unselfish and open-minded about everything.

Everyone in my family asks me over and over: Is this what you want? Are you ready? My answer is simple: A person can never be too ready for a lifelong commitment, they will need faith and reliance on God. Without those two, nothing can be retained. I want this to work and I'll have to put forth every effort.


Captain O.